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Keeping Calm v. Carrying On

The other day I was gifted with the opportunity to practice what I preach.

I received a shock that left me hurt, angry, and more than a bit anxious.  My tummy churned, my breathing became shallow, and I slipped into negative thinking – angry thoughts towards myself and others, fearful thoughts about finances, dark humor.

I could have lashed out with my anger, told off the person who upset me.  I could have carried on, ranting to every one who would listen about how unfair it was, throwing a temper tantrum.  But that's not my style.  (Not anymore, anyway...)

I recognized that feeling angry, hurt, and anxious wasn’t helping anything.  One of my mantras lately is: “Everything is easier when you feel good.”  I recognize that everything is harder when I feel bad, and that feeling bad programs my brain to seek out more stuff to feel bad about.

So, in the midst of my anxious spiral, I caught myself and asked, “What do I need to feel better right now?”

In that moment, I was babysitting two toddlers, the older of whom was fighting with my preschooler.  All three boys were crying loudly, the older toddler hitting and kicking me.  So my first goal was to simply keep my cool.  My second goal was to calm down each child and connect with each, which meant shifting my focus from my own needs to meet theirs without losing my temper and making things worse for all of us.

It wasn’t until 2 hours later, on my drive home, that I had the space to really assess my own needs.  I was proud of myself for keeping my cool despite my inner turmoil, but that wasn’t enough to get me smiling.

I needed to get myself laughing.  Laughter would send endorphins through my system, chemically uplifting my mood.  Laughter would help me expel the anxious and angry energy, and help me heal the hurt.

I couldn’t watch funny videos, search for funny images, or read funny blogs or books since I was driving, so I tried to bring up some memories of things that always make me smile.  That got me smiling.  Then I started fantasizing, creating entertainment in my mind’s eye, but my fantasies were tending toward vengeance and drama, so I switched to singing along with the radio, diverting my attention to other things whenever the negative thoughts cropped back up.

Finally, I spent the evening watching Doctor Who with my best friend, and went to sleep knowing I’d feel better when I awoke.

Sleep and laughter did their job.  My stomach was still a little churny the following day, but I could breathe deeply.  My thoughts tended towards plans and goals rather than fears and anger.  Sitting outside in the gorgeous Florida weather also helped.  The bad feelings were still noticeable, but so much weaker.  The good feelings I’d been consciously cultivating were much stronger and about ready to bloom.

How different, how much better, did I respond to this conflict than I had a year previously!  In January 2013 when someone I loved and trusted treated me badly, I lost my temper and burned bridges.  I don’t regret it, because the toll on that particular bridge was too high, but I would much rather consciously choose to burn a bridge than to do so reactively, out of pain and anger.

This is what I’ve learned:

Fear makes me want to isolate myself, keep quiet, and fall into old patterns.  It comes from my animal brain, the part concerned with self-preservation, and it is not reasonable.  Understanding why I should not be afraid is not enough to neutralize fear.  Fear is an emotion that results from being separated from people, behaviors, and things that make me feel safe and loved.

To heal fear, I need to make myself feel safe, happy, and loved.  Because my brain responds to my thoughts, memories, and fantasies the same way it responds to my physical reality, I can use memories, fantasies, affirmations, and consciously changing things in my physical reality to heal myself and change my life.


What is stressing you out right now?

What do you need to feel safe, happy, and loved?


How can you give that to yourself?

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Ashley Rae published her first book, a memoir, in 2012, and has been a professional psychic, healer, and teacher since 2003. Ashley's goal in life is to help you empower the divine spark within yourself so that you can love yourself freely, make your life awesome, and make this world a more beautiful, compassionate place. Visit her website to check out her other blog, find out her schedule, book an appointment and register for her classes.


  • Alay'nya
    Alay'nya Wednesday, 15 January 2014

    Dear Ashley -


    We all need continued encouragement and practical examples of how to shift when we're really challenged.

    What I like so much about your blog is that you had to deal with some practical things - toddlers, driving - that caused you to handle other's needs & overall situation first, and then figure out creative approaches to your own needs - and to keep trying solutions until you found one (singing w/ radio) that worked.

    Thanks for sharing. This is the kind of help that many of us need.

    Many blessings -

    Author, Unveiling: The Inner Journey

  • Ashley Rae
    Ashley Rae Wednesday, 15 January 2014

    Thank you, Alianna! My main goal with my blog is to give practical examples and suggestions to make it easier for my readers to se how they can implement positive changes in their own lives. I don't want to repeat platitudes; I want to show what is working for me. Again, thank you so much for letting me know that I'm succeeding!
    Ashley Rae

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