Long time readers of my blog remember me writing about my 2 weddings during the year I was writing Some Say Fire, my unpublishable monstrosity based on heathen mythology. The 2 weddings both took place in that liminal space between sleep and waking, the first one to Loki / Lodhur and the second one to Odin and Honir. Neither time did I actually make wedding vows except to say "Yes, I want that." Neither time did I plan or expect them to happen. Both had been on a 28th of the month and I considered that my month-a-versary. Well, now I have an actual anniversary, and I didn't plan it that way lol. The gods know I sometimes just have random thoughts in my head and they've pretty much just ignored most of them over the years, but they didn't ignore it this time.

By the way, since this blog is Gnosis Diary and I was asked to write it to show what it feels like to do heathenry, I try to write about gnosis here at least occasionally, among my other topics. So anyway, on to the rest of my story.

If I had planned to have a third wedding or a renewal of vows (can you call it that if you never made any in the first place?) I would have made a wedding dress and put it on. I would have had a sumbel toast at the very least. But oh no, a sentence occurred in my head while I was getting ready for a ritual and donning my ritual garb, which includes dedicated jewelry. I was putting on my fire agate ring, the one my dad had made for himself decades ago and which I had dedicated to Loki as my Loki wedding ring after my first godspouse wedding. In my mind, I thought, "With this ring, I thee wed."

"Finally!" Loki said in my head.

So there I was in the middle of getting dressed, with a sudden presence of gods in my head. And I was like, "Um, what? I thought I didn't need to do anything more?"

And they were like, "There are 3 of us, so you need 3 weddings." And also I needed to have an actual anniversary, apparently.

So there we have it. Years later and I STILL didn't manage to have a wedding dress on, despite being actually awake and standing upright this time. lol. The gods just don't care about such trappings the way we humans do, apparently. Or at least these particular gods don't care about that with regards to their relationship with me, anyway.

Coincidentally I happened to have just published my essay Towards a Lore-Based Model of Godspousery, which I've been working on for years. You can read it in the latest issue of Eternal Haunted Summer Magazine (Winter Solstice 2020) here: https://eternalhauntedsummer.com/issues/winter-solstice-2020/a-lore-based-model-of-god-spousery/

Image: Odin, Honir, and Lodhur who is Loki sculpting the world, classical art in public domain.