In my day job, I've been struggling with a few issues. The stress has been higher than normal making me fall into old bad habits. I'd love to say I recognized this immediately and countered it but of course I didn't. I got in a rut.
As I recognized (finally) what I was doing and the rut I'd been spinning my wheels in, I returned to techniques I knew worked. Stress is bad for my gout. It makes it flare up and cause me a great deal of pain.
I had so many things to be angry about. So many people had wronged me, from my biological father who molested me, to my beloved grandmother who’d bailed him out of jail and brought him home to live with me after he shot my mother in the head, to my mother who taught me that I was worthless and unlovable, to the so-called friends who had used and betrayed me over and over.
They wronged me. They hurt me. They deserved to suffer for what they did to me. How could I possibly forgive them, especially if they were not even pretending to be sorry?
Queen of Swords from the Anna K Tarot by Llewellyn
When making a decision, the Queen of Swords is logical and rational.She exudes confidence because she knows that she sees every aspect of every possible scenario in any situation.She is impartial and doesn’t allow emotion to cloud her judgment.In this card from the Anna K tarot deck, she has both hands on her sword, demonstrating that she has control of her thoughts, not letting them waiver.Her matter-of-fact attitude can appear just as cold as the winter scene behind her.When she appears in a reading, you are being told to use critical thinking and be impartial.
It's true. It was sometime in the mid 80's that I became an Affirmation addict. At least I think that is when I first ran across this concept. My first real memory of learning about affirmations was in Marion Weinstein's fabulous little red book,
After I wrote about liminality recently, I have been thinking about change and how we create it in our lives. Affirmations are a magical tool that can be very powerful, but only when constructed well. Using the present progressive tense to craft affirmations puts them in a form that draws on the Element of Fire and makes them much more effective tools for transformation.