So much has changed since my last post. 

I worked in a position that caused me to get "tunnel vision" and only focus on my work. I worked long hours to obtain goals that the company expected in the hopes that I would be a "good" employee. 

I suppose that my episode over Easter should have been a wake-up call and encouraged me to find my soul and move on, but it didn't. I found that I continued to work, sit, and focus on that job and it's goals. Production became my nightmare and points per hour became my vision.

Again, I could feel my health paying the toll as well as my family...and I worked from home! This was supposed to be easy, enjoyable and exciting. it was - to a point. Then a merger happened and "ramp ups" happened.

Needlesstosay, I am not working. It has been two weeks since I last worked. I have internalized some and have been working on household things as well as taking a few courses and expanding my mind and spirit. But, the most exciting thing is that I have secured a space where my little vendor shop can turn into an actual place of business with street window frontage and more space for  products! 

I feel at peace and am excited. 

At times it's hard to listen to your guides. I believe that mine have been leading me in this direction, but conformity kept taking over and I would not listen to them but try to become what society as a whole would want me to be, the business school instructor, the compliant lender letter writer, the retail banker, the background investigation reviewer, but under it all the healer, the mystic, the empathic medium kept shining through.

The light has been turned on and the path is brightly lit. 

Follow your guides, even if they tell you to conform to society, that is where you need to be at that time in your life.

Blessed be.