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A Story of Awakening-X'anyuae

The following is a story I wrote almost five years ago and posted to my first blog, The Magickal Pen. I love to read the works of Dion Fortune, and especially am intrigued by her use of fiction as a tome of teaching the mysteries. She is not the only author who makes use of this vehicle for studies and so, as one who seeks inspiration from many sources, I thought I would give it a try. 

I have waited until what I believed to be the right moment to share it again and to a broader audience and now seems to "it". There are so many things at this point in time that are pulling us in many directions and the footing and foundations that we may have worked so carefully at being the staples of our spiritual diets may be shifting and uneasy. So, we need to find new ways of engaging our learning and be open and receptive to all that can serve as lessons along our chosen paths. Maybe all that is needed to renew and shore up those foundations is a foray into a world of creation and fiction that might turn a key to a new awakening within. You be the judge....


...An important aspect of spiritual training and magickal practice is that of versatility and being able to re-invent the tools you are working with. This applies not only to being adept at adapting to what you physically have at your disposal, but also developing mental agility in how you express yourself creatively (or as an act of creation).  So, with this thought in mind, I've decided to step outside of my comfort zone and try something different- esoteric fiction! The art work was my eldest daughter's gift to me some years ago as a representation of my former lifetime. It has been the source of much inspiration for me, so it seemed appropriate to name her and tell her story. Here goes and hope you enjoy!....


Part One

As she lay in her dreamsleep, X'anyuae could hear the gentle voice in her mind saying "It's time". She opened her eyes slowly and sat up, allowing the last bit of dream vision to clear. She did not know how long she had been in the dream Temple but she sensed that it had been several days. Today was the final test she must undergo if she was to be initiated as a Vessel.

Slowly her senses awakened to the space around her and she felt the coolness of the marble stone on which she had lain. She stretched, arms reaching upwards and moved her fingers gracefully gaining physical sensation back in each of them. She turned her body and swung her legs off the side allowing the blood to warm and re-circulate back through long and graceful legs. Warmth spread through all of her physical body and all of her senses were alert, taking in everything.

She stood, her bare feet touching the cool surface of the floor and the darkened chamber responded to her touch as a soft light filled the small space. She breathed in deeply filling her lungs and exhaled toning a sound that echoed through all of her bodies, calling each of them to attention and alertness.

A circular pool of clear and very blue water formed submerged in the floor; appearing in response to her calling. She walked forward and stepped down into these waters that would serve to purify and further prepare her for what lay ahead. The water was warm and fragrant from the carefully selected herbs she had gathered in the days before her dreamsleep. Beads of light shimmered on the water's surface as she lay back against the smooth edge of the marble rim. X'anyuae closed her eyes and memories of all that had brought her to this space moved through her mind.

Even in her First Aeon of memory X'anyuae knew she was special. Most could not see into the Hidden Realm and fewer still were able to regulate the pattern and form of their bodies to be fully awake in both the Hidden and True realms. Her parents knew that the time would come when X'anyuae would gain even greater gifts and they also knew what the destiny of one who could master these gifts would be.

By the time she had reached her Third Aeon of memory, X'anyuae could call forth the Great Beings of the Four Worlds. She could move like the winds, weaving her body through currents that flowed in the heavens. She could lift the waters, carrying them great distances to parts of land that were dry and barren. She warmed the coldest of nights and tempered the blazing heat of day. And, all of the physical world and its makings moved and opened, reforming and flattening as she wished.

These were not unusual of themselves, but the way in which she caused these changes was a power that was well beyond her age. She became the embodiment of whatever she wished to change. The first time X'anyuae became the wind it occurred as she was walking through the woods with her Mother. Her senses heightened as a breeze brushed across her face and she had the thought that it would be wonderful to move as the wind; unseen in its form and energy until it allowed its presence to be known. As this thought built in her desire and excitement about the possibility, she found herself moving, disintegrating in physical form as so many leaves scattered on the winds. She thought the sensation was utterly exhilarating and with this thought her form was that of a gentle current upon which the most beautiful bird was soaring.

Realizing, she could not remain in this form, X'anyuae allowed her thoughts to return once again towards the re-forming of her physical body. Just as easily as she had become the Air she now found herself walking with her Mother and having a grand conversation about her imaginings. When she told her Mother that she had indeed accomplished this goal the reply was "but dear, that was just a dream. You have been walking with me all this time and we have been having the most wonderful conversation."

This was the beginning of many echoings, as she later learned they were called. Some had been trained in this skill, but few were able to simply think them into happening. X'anyuae later learned that this first echoing had caught the attention of the Great Mother and she would be chosen to be trained in these and other arts of the Work. What she did not know was that none, except the Great Mother, herself were able to remain fully present and in physical form as their other bodies were echoing what was the desire and intent of the physical thought. Now, in her Ninth Aeon of memory, It Was Time!

X'anyuae called her attention back to the fragrant waters hearing once again the call to come to the sacred Temple. "The Great Mother's test awaits you, X'anyuae. And, all this time of training and preparing the bodies must pass the trial of the vessel if you are to serve. Come, child. They wait."

As the last words faded, X'anyuae stood up and droplets of water fell like tiny crystals from her body. She exhaled deeply and a warm breeze filled the chamber, gently drying her. A simple white gown lay on a low stone shelf in front of her and she bent over picking it up to put on. It flowed over her lithe and graceful body and she pulled her long dark hair out from the underneath the circular neckline letting it fall naturally draping across her slender shoulders. She took another deep breath, this one to quiet the nervous excitement she felt and walked towards the entryway and out into a long narrow corridor.

The walls glistened of white marble and with each step closer to the sacred room X'anyuae could feel the resonance of her energy building with that held in the most sacred of spaces, the Temple of the Vessel. She could see light flowing from an archway just ahead and could feel its energy wrapping around her and drawing her towards it like a loved and trusted friend. She had been in this room many times now; first only as observer. As her skill and knowledge grew she was entrusted with the sacred task of upholder. Tonight, others would witness and uphold as she was called to the Work.

She paused just in front of the archway, light now flooding out and around her. She had been trained to wait, patiently and when it was time, she would accept the challenge of entry and the change of recognition would begin. She felt the weight of this offer of entry and remembered the love she felt from the Great Mother those many aeons ago as she whispered to X'anyuae, "you have been chosen. Your life will forever change if you come to me. You must come to me freely and trust in my wisdom as you learn and grow in your power. May your Will choose wisely."

X'anyuae exhaled a clear and intention-filled "yes!" and she stepped through the archway and into the sacred chamber.....

Part II next week...

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Image Credit: Caitlin Fennelly, MFA

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Robin Fennelly is an Elder within The Assembly of the Sacred Wheel Tradition and serves as High Priestess of Coven of the Mystic Path, the 12th Coven within the Assembly of the Sacred Wheel Tradition. She teaches and facilitates classes for the Pagan Experience Study Group that serves as foundation for membership within Coven of the Mystic Path.
Her spiritual journey is strongly rooted in both Eastern philosophy and the Western Magickal systems from which she has formed a core foundation that is diverse in knowledge and rich in spiritual practice. A life-long learner, her practice has evolved from the classical and philosophical teachings of books, practical experience and enrichment of this knowledge base by attending workshops of various spiritual traditions presented by master teachers.
Robin formally came to the Wiccan path in 1994. Following a practice as a solitary for 2 years, she dedicated to Oak and Willow Coven of The Assembly of the Sacred Wheel Tradition in November of 1996. She received her 1st, 2nd, 3rd and 4th (Elder) degrees within the Assembly Tradition and has served as High Priestess of two ASW covens since Samhain of 2001 and the Winter Solstice of 2015.
As a teacher of esoteric and magickal studies she uses Energetic Anatomy, Tarot, Astrology, Hermetic Qabala, Eastern Philosophy, and Numerology as the foundations of her diverse selection of workshops and writings for more than 25 years. Exploration of varied energetic protocol has been the focus of her work for some time now and the information gained through direct experience informs all of her magickal and spiritual work.
Robin’s writings have been featured online, and in print Internationally. She has authored several books incorporating her unique style of writing making use of poetry, prose and pathworking to enhance the concepts presented. She has taught extensively throughout the Pagan community, including Sacred Space Conference, Spring Magick, Between the Worlds Interfaith Conference and Free Spirit Gathering Festival. Her most recent projects include a channel on youtube: A Journey to the Inner Chamber. She also shares audio pathworkings and ritual on her bandcamp site: Teachings on the Path with Robin.
Robin is the owner of Holistic Embrace providing services for mind, body and spirit such as Tarot readings, Astrology reports, Spiritual Guidance and other related offerings. She lives in Eastern Pennsylvania and her life is blessed by a 40+- year marriage, five children and the opportunity to work in the field of public education.


  • Tasha Halpert
    Tasha Halpert Thursday, 14 September 2017

    Can't wait to see what happens next. Thanks for sharing, Tasha

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