A recipe for more passion- and who doesn't want that?
First, remember what NOT to do: don't go looking for passion, or pumping yourself up with lots of stimuli. Why? because they're slow killers. They numb you. Go the other way: become more sensitive to what is. What is here now?
There's this ugly little thought in the pagan community. It's an insidious thing--this thought. It says that if you can't still your mind, you can't work magic. It has a bit of shame connected to it. Like pieces of tissue with bits of the brown stuff stuck to your shoe, it flutters about just waiting for someone more knowing, more "silent of mind" to notice.
As you may have guessed I have really struggled with meditation. My walk on the path of the Craft began in the early 80's. My teacher did guided meditations. My mind did what I like to think of as solo explorations of the story possibilities of those guided meditations.
Step into the place of the Beloved. The Lover will come immediately. The great Gaia is always there, right under your feet. She brings this quality of Lover and Beloved into the connection that's happening right now. As soon as you stop denying that, stop taking your awareness away from it, this love bursts to the surface. Allow it in your body, in your dance. Feel it spreading into all your other relationships. Love is happening right here, right now.
Too often we waste our time- and love- in the delusion it isn't there. AS if we need to search it. This is only possible because we are so estranged from Earth. As soon as we come back to Her, we experience Her infinite Love. Allow yourself to step into the dance and become Her Beloved.
Come present in this moment. The edge of sacred emergence is right here, right here now. It’s present in anything you do. Find the edge by fully becoming present. Include whatever there is. Feel you are always, always being met. Maybe not by everyone in the way you would wish. But who’s always there, and always meeting , is earth. And space. Will you be the one who disappoints them? Or will you show up fully? If so, from this connection energy will start to shine. It will invite others to become more present too. Start moving from this connection, from this energy. It’s a place where you don’t know if the movement started in you or in the other. That’s emergence happening.
Huh? The music that is in you — where is it? How do you tap into it?
If you're asking me, belly queen as I am, I'll say we tap into our music — into every expression of our life force — by deepening into our body's center, the sourcepoint of our creative energy. We cultivate our relationship with this soul-power as we honor, rather than shame, our bellies. We activate it with movement and breath.
Sitting comfortably, enter into the Centering Breath. Notice any images and sensations that come into your awareness as you focus your attention within your body’s center.
Consider your arm to be an extension of your belly, a pipeline ready to carry information from your body’s center through to your hand and out onto paper. Maintaining your awareness in your belly, take the colored markers that appeal to you. Let your arm and hand move across the paper, spilling out colors, shapes, and lines.
Give yourself all the permission you need to make your marks freely, without judgment or restriction.
These same guidelines apply when I'm at the piano, improvising — letting music arrive without planning, without thinking. Just as with drawing, my arms serve as pipelines, allowing the flow of energy and information from body's center to keyboard.
The music that emerges in this way is so heart- and soul-satisfying. As one of my mentors, Mark Kelso of Muddy Angel Music, likes to say: The fun isn't so much in playing music; it's in being played by the music.
There's a delicate balance between improvisation and composition. Certainly, each can inspire the other.
By my lights, as improvisation offers sensory experience of the life force concentrated in the body center, it expresses the energy of the Sacred Feminine.
Composition can likewise convey the sense of the Sacred Feminine. In this clip from Ethan Hawke's magnificent film, "Seymour: An Introduction," hear what virtuoso pianist Seymour Bernstein says about Beethoven's expression of — and ambivalent relationship with — the feminine:
Ecstacy heals and connects, and can be part of every day. As you allow connection, energy is raised, enabling you to shoot to the stars. Start with whatever connection you are in now and here. Leave aside judgements and fears. Experience the magic that happens when you start fully allowing everything you sense, and everything the other senses. You do sense what the other senses. Be daring enough to become aware of that. Ecstacy follows.
Ecstacy is are birth right. Too often we forego this healing experience that realigns our cells with what is real. We stay trapped in judgements, ideas, preferences, and all other sort of stuff. There's a wilder life waiting. One very beautiful connection that's always there, is your connection with Gaia. Mother Earth. And yes, it has this full power to bring you into ecstacy, and that will flow over to your other relationships.
Find a short daily meditation to help you not forget. Remember, you are fully worth it.